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finally got the motivation to sit back down and type. you know it is still awkward to just put your stuff out there for people to read. im still ajusting. lol. ill get there. but also this past week was just surreal.  it just felt like and about of body experience and i literally was in a movie. i dont know why. i was having awkward dreams, like every night, and then i packed up my apartemt, cause i will taking them back home tomorrow to store away. its really weird still walking through my door seeing nothing on the walls, boxes right there, taunting me. and its like tomorrow i give my thirty day ntice, that i just typed this morning, and ill be honest its kinda cute. but i really have loved this apartment, i think, this place was a sign for me when i need it at that moment. i did a lot of growing here and im going to miss it.  finish cup number four of coffee, another hit, and back to typing. hmmmmm...oh yeah last week, so well i  just was in this major funk and then i had to talk about giving my 2 week notice in to the studio and holy shit the word awkward could not be more useful. it felt like someone took their fist and reached inside my stomche and twirling thiere finger in my guts, but it had to happen i just wanted to do it on my accord. which reminded me i am going to post some pictures here in a min. of my life at the studio, mind you these aren't all the people more to come still, but until i get them on my computer, may i add to that these people are what got me through the hell of a week last week (with a few missing) pause. so tell me why i had already uploaded them and i just went through this long process to get them on my computer. anyways here are some pictures

Kristen Lorello and I. She is my Idol. when i grow up i want to be just like her. . Exquist dancer/teacher/choreographer. a must take class.

*Left to Right* Kenny, Me, Marquise. Marquise and I  hold down mondays.  Kenny was shadowing that day.  

The OG Monday Crew. 

And then there is Laura. My little sexy Texas office partner, she works at the desk. We get the party started in the office.    

LIZZZZZZ. i love her. funny, we share a lot of good times. she too is  a workstudy 

CHA-CHA-CHA-CHINO!!! yeah hes not as tough as he looks. Amazing salsa teacher tho.  

 Andrea. she looks innocent huh? girls a freaky thang, were on the same level. she is another workstudy 

dont forget there are still more to come. ya i need to get on it, but now that i am out of this funk and everything has kinda of settled in. im back on the move this week. well i have a lot to do. and i JUST CANT WAIT for this shower to be over with this Sat. I love my twin Chrisi with all my heart but im ready for the stress to be over with. i cant wait to leave this damn place to be real honest.  Icant wait to wake up on someones couch just throw clothes on catch the subway train or bus and jet off to the studio to be taking class from amazing people. and thats all i do. learn learn learn. and dance dance dance of course but i cant to be on my own far far away starting my life, building my own life, kinda from nothing but from something, if that makes sense to anyone. I feel really focused right now, GETTING THE FUCK OUT is my goal, and i am so close, nearly 2 months from now, it shard to imagine me walking on the plane seeing it set off into the sky. and knowing there is no turning back. i hope all these bizarre dreams are good signs for my future between the murder and random journey through weird lands i hope its all telling me something.  okie so since  i am on this go. go .go mode i am going to go. i will be back soon. ill be more on it i promise.