For the love of 69

Ok so irionIc story this just happened: I was drivIng to where I am right now "twin peaks" in sf which is one of my favorite place to come. Anyways so driving up here I was intending to class but I got stoned and though fuck that I want to go up the a view and write cause this what I have been want to do but I've been so busy, well on my way here I was thinking to myself "geez, how many more days do I got Till I leave, how funny if I had sixty nine right now!" so I go and check on my phone app and no fcking way I had sixty nine days left. Thought that was cool. So let's break it down so far on whats been going on here on my trip. Well it's been great. It weeks like this that I cherish with my family and friends. My aunt Jen has been here. We're both at my grandmas house. And not gonna lie was sceptical about it at first but honestly it been amazing. We are a lot alike. In many ways. Different too which is nice cause we balance each other out. She's always been more like my big sis I never had. We had so much fun together. We gOt set up on triple date. Both hers and my date were blind had no idea. Well turns out here dude bailed and mine showed and not gonna lie it was a great time. It was with her friend ginene and let me tell you these dog park ladies are hilarious just imagine housewives of San Carlos ya hilarious. But I dig them. Ya so that been nice. My Chrisi came and stayed a few nights with me. And I Cant tell you how much I love her. All bullshit aside I love her to death and she is going to be a great mom. These past few moths I've seen a change in her more than I ever have before and it's so good. She is going to be an exceptional mother without of a doubt.so while she was staying with me we did baby shower stuff together. She didn't see it till Saturday though all put together. And I am very pleased with the shower it was me and just perfect. I think she was really happy about it. I hope so she said she did but knowing her she could just saying that to be nice. But she could have. The theme was Paris and so me my aunt and my mom went to the goodwill and dug up all these really cool Paris n blue things do decorate and we had all different kinds of French appetizers. She had a great turn out of people. Omg but the one lady who will remain nameless came up to me and said " you know back when you were younger I didn't like you" first person to say that. Well to face like that. Well probably cause I was doped up on drugs but I wouldn't have liked me too. Lol. Anywho I laugh now. So I have to take a Monet and tell you how pretty the view is. I'll snap a picture and post it later. So that happened. I've been teaching now for two days and gotta say it's going smoothly I am doing really well wih time I'm glad the kids are liking it. Right now I just feel really good. I'm wondering what the views I am going to see are going to look like while I'm traveling? I love views. Looking down on life. It's crazy. Its like I'm taking a strip out of craziness. SOoooo I'm now thinking about how nervous I'm getting a month and a half pretty much and I'm off. To fend for myself to be wise to start over to explore life and myself to grow to do what I love n dance. which reminds me taking class here in the city is so different. The studios out here are whack!!! Major!!! Ugh I miss my Debbie family!! I miss my brandie Ellis Andrea Liz marquise JP Tinelle kenney mindy Mariana the teachers. I really miss them. I finally feel like I found somewhere I fit. And I'm myself and people get it. I miss learning. I miss the inspiration. Don't get me wrong I love being here with my family. But when I don't have a place to dance and a place where i feel like im leaving with a bit more knowledge I swear a peice of me is missing. And I swear this move I'm going to fight. Fight for it all. I can see I'm gaining confidence. Derrell said that one day you'll just snap out of it that it will come to you. Like it will just burst out and bham! So I'm hoping that's soon, patience,ooommmm! Hmmmmm have to wait and find out. Till then. Now all I got to do get rid of the shit in my apt. I got all my personal stuff out that was awkward to put it in the moms garage. My life in boxes at my moms. Five boxes to be exact. You know what I want right now a hug from brandie!! She gives amazing hugs. But yeah five boxes. And last I move my bed back over thanksgiving and then fly back down to drive my car back up. Then I'm officially back in the bay for a month. Holly shit and that doesn't seem far at all hell it's already The 8th. Damn dude. The 8th. I think of the word alone for some reason. Fuck and that's a month away from dancing at Debbie's! But I got to say I'm excited for the birth of my little nephew Lil Rye Rye. Can I just also state how damn cute my little nephew aiden was this weekend at the baby shower. Very well behaved had the cures haircut. Then the little dude totally ate it in my bushes. God I love him. I can't wait to has kids. I tell you it's been great being around my loved ones. It's gonna be so hard to not be just a small flight or drive (not so small but doable) away. Fuck man even from friends in la the small group I have ive become really attached to them. And I really thought, to be honest, I wasn't gonna find anyone to be friends with. I don't know why maybe my insecurities . Or not being in my own self. I feel like. I'm gettig back to myself and I'm really hoping this new journey will help me get that back. I don't know where it went but I want it back damnit. Omg these people took a picture next to me and freaked me the fuck out!! So I just snapped a few pictures so y'all call see the view of the city from where I am. Amazing!!! Spectacular. And I think I am going to conclude here for the night. Ya. Onelove!