i was like five or something and my mom was going of to europe and i remember her telling me that i wasnt going but that some day she'll take me. i remember she even brought me back a learn how to speech french for kids book it was so cool. it had these pull out tabs with the pictures it was amazing. and sometimes my mom growing up would end a sentence in french. i wanted to go really bad. then there was a school project of course in my worst subject math that the winner would win a trip over seas with some group. or something of that sort, all i remember is that the winner got to go to Europe and and i wanted it bad! of course i was failing math so i just looked to my dreams and would daydream in class about it. by time high school hit i was too wrapped in the drug game to even think of of it any more. then came college, where i was focusing on just getting through the semester but would some how get distracted by other things that werent dance to distract me and i guess keep me in school mode, but yeah not gonna lie the whole time i felt like i was livin a total lie, and all i wanted to do was just fucking dance. dance dance dance. i mean i was onlt dancing here and there as much as i could. yeah talk about torture. it was dangling in front of my face for 5 years. anyways the best thing in life could have happened to me i was offered a spot as a workstudy at Debbie Reynolds. it was my ticket. my ticket to happiness, freedom, myself to be honest. and it couldn't have been the been a more perfect time too cause i was graduating. and it gave me that little bit of umph. to stay on track. I have learned a great deal since that day, i feel like i am a whole other person but with the intention to never stop growing and learning. everyone at Debbies has had a magical impact on my life. and i have learned from who i consider to be the best in the world, i have built friendships and (still in the process) have learned a great deal of information. i have met so many people from around the world that are some of the best people i know and i feel like it is so important as a dancer to get to be able to experience all different cultures of dance, see other methods far from what i have learned, and see the world in a different light. I need to get out of L.A. even before graduating i was already over it. it is definitely a love hate thing. wont lie at this moment in time certainly more hate then love. this city and i are not on the same page, and Im ready to spread my wings further, ready to start a new chapter in my life, just ready to start. finally my life. i feel like it has been forever since i have been in myself and im getting there. and that's why i need to live out my dream travel. live in a city that i have been dying to be in for a lil while. find myself . on every level i can. right now my focus is on dance and finding myself as a dancer with a mix of myself (but i think that's with every journey in life there is always going to be a little bit about yourself that is going to change or grow). i am ready to put myself to another test. which i'm always doing. being on my own. away. alone. most likely lost. a rather freshly mopped dance floor to start creating my own master piece. i have no clue to as what i am suppose to gain from this, where it is going to take me, , i have hopes, and goals, and ideas, thats about all. so this ought to be quite interesting. there were a bunch of ironic instances that came about during this whole thing and how i know i am doing the right thing for myself. well to start off about 90% of my dreams involve me being in Eroupe (i havnt been anywhere in europe so i couldnt tell you where they just looked real european) anyhow the moment i knew i was going to buy my ticket i just snapped out of a dream that really wasnt a dream it was really just a flashbook of pictures of my life and it stopped on a picture of the clock in London (Big Ben i think) and with everything that was going on in my life. i knew it was a sign and time to go. called my mom to hear her reaction and that was pretty much the decision maker
so let me tell you a little about what it is i am doing. I bought a one way ticket that lands in London from there i will be traveling to 22 countries. this number could change. but by like a number or two. still working on sorting it all out. hey go big or go home. so from there i will be staying about a week or two in some of the countries. but goal is just live and to party but to learn the most i can from the best of the best. i am going to be doing this couchsurfing thing, its kind of a trip but it was highly recommended. so im going for it. plus i like the idea of meeting people that i might only see for that short moment. and to save money who can beat that. i will be living out of a back-pack during my travels and only caring the important thing i am going to need. Once i am done traveling, certainly not done learning, i am going to station myself in London and continue to dance and complete my goals. and from there who knows. thats the point right?
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