45 days left

so im home. back in the bay area. came back on an unexpected whim but i think it was meant to be. I drove back Wednesday night after i got a text from my apartment manger which i love. but she went in my apartment to see if i had left and my stuff was still there and she text me and asked if i was leaving or staying that night cause she had painters. It didn't even take me half a second to decide and i was like i am going home tonight. mind you i packed all day and took 3 back to back classes. right after class i just left on the open road. it was 10pm but i didnt give a fuck at all i just wanted to get home and out of LA. i will say this though the day i left was an amazing day. I left/closed the chapter of LA on such a good note. it was great to know in my head and heart that i was leaving a place i grew so into and considered my home for the last six years of my life with a positive feeling like i knew i was doing the right thing. my biggest hope tho is that i left LA having touched the life of someone. hoped to help them in a positive way and made a positive impact on them. help them learn something about life, themselves, or just was able to bring a smile to their face.  i really hope i did. leaving felt good though. im ready for this new chapter in my life to begin. its funny though because as the days are countdown i feel like i am writing the end of this chapter to my life. sometimes when i talk to myself  i talk like it am reading a book. OMG OMG OMG which reminds me i want to tell yall i bought the rest of the Hunger Game trilogy. I am so excited i already started the second book Catching Fire. hahaha. anyways its been wuite the journey. then yesterday when i woke up i immediately got up an went to go pick up Chrisi. and let me tell you!! my sister is PREGO!! i love it though. and minus what anyone thought of when we found out she was pregnant, time has passed and things have settled and watching her grow into the beautiful woman carrying a child, i just cant wait for this baby! he is like an addition to the famous twins. he is going to be like out little mascot. and on the way up while i was driving i was imagining me being the best uncle 3-7-10-17 years down the road. coming back from the airport him bring in the car to take me home. me being able to pick him up from school as i visit, going to go play, i can teach him how to dance, babysitting him and me getting to SPOIL THE SHIT out him. im going to treat him like my very own kid. she just better not try and keep him from me when i want to come and visit. LOL. but all bullshit aside i cant wait!! the family cant wait!! yay for new life chapters. anyhow so when i picked her up we spent the day together pretty much doing a bunch of nothing errands and annoyed each other and laughed and watched a movie and pigged out. you know the usual that we do. she is sitting next to me know. we are at Starbucks sippin on coffee. now that i am home though i feel a little bit better with my body and mind. we got a lot of healthy food when we went shopping last night. imma start going back to the gym today/tonight. i am in need of major stretching. my legs are sore as fuck and the muscles are so tight. i am ready for another massage. but i ready to get back on track . i still need to organize my shit, but who wants to do that like come on! cant we just skip all that and get to fun shit already. I will say though because i didnt have much time to think before i left i really miss my family in LA. I didnt want to leave them!!! i have only a few more hurdles, hoops to jump through before i am finally on my own, free to go and live my life. can i get a amen!