DaNcEsUrFeR!: Day 1

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Day 1

Today is finally here and I am finally on the plane!! It is unbelievable I don't think that I have ever felt so free in my entire life before. Knowing that I can wake up and just go anywhere I want and do whatever it is I want. It's like a dam come true. I have never been on this big of a plane and let me tell you I have done quite the bit of traveling in my life but this and is the shit. I should have upgraded. I could have too. But to be honest I completely satisfied with wh I am at. Mind you the guy sitting next to me is really hot!! And these flight attendants do not fuck around with the vodka (it's all free and the food too), plus I got a charger I can use my own personal flat screen with helllllllllla movies to chose from and all sorts of gizmos!! and instead of speaking on the over head (unless like emergency things) the comments just pop up on the screen. Alright air new Zealand I see what you are workin with! You know I sat outside the airport smoking my last cigarette as my ill sis dropped me off and I asked my self if I am really ready for this? Am I able to do it? Well I told myself I can do this, and I am gonna dance my way through it all and prove to the world that I am here to conquer!! Lol ok a little dramatic but, I am here to dance for sure and to learn, and once this plane lands I really want to take this time to not drink or smoke weed (cigarettes maybe after all this.lol.) which is why I am taking full advantage of this free alcohol. Damn I still have 5 hours on this flight. Whoooo. For a person who can never sit still this has got to be one of the worst things for them. Long distance flying lol. Wow the amount of gorgeous men on this flight can not get any better hahah. Aww I just looked and we are right above New York! I'm waving to you A.J.!!! One of my biggest inspirations and reasons for being able what I am doing and how I an do it alone! It's like she give me strength and motivation as I watch her go through life I kinda see my life in hers! And I love it!

So I land in 5 hours now I have to make sure I contact the people I am staying with since my phone is no longer!! So I am going to have to find a pay phone and just let them know I am here and on my way! I figure I should probably go put my stuff away and then I can find a cute cafe or something where there is wifi and get a hold of my family to let them know I am ok. I can garentee that not of them is going to be sleeping.poor grandma I know she must be ripping her hair out but I wish she would have the same faith in me as she did Jen when she moved. Granted Jen stayed in the USA and I happen to chose London. But I am going to send them all a message letting them know I am ok. Then. I am on my my mission to find the studios!! And take class, my body is itching to dance!!! I didn't get a chance to dance that much in LA cause I was too busy saying goodbye to friends and what not and enjoying my last few days with them cause I know it is going to be a while (if things go as planned) before I see them again!!! sop I am dying to get at these instructors to see what they have to offer and what I can learn!! I know nothing is going to be like LA but I am sure and I gaurentee there are things I will learn over here that LA will not give me but, and I hope to bring stuff out here of my own to share with people and hope to inspire people myself. On that note I am going to watch Warrior now and get more insipred. May I just add I am dying for a cigarette too :(

9:13 (USA)
So turns out the hotties sitting next to me IS gay! Loves it!! We haven't talked yet but I saw on his iPad the picture of him and his partner totally adorable!! And the flight attendant gave me two full cups of vodka chips and tonic water!! Recommendation fly Air New Zealand!! And "Warrior" a fantastic movie!! Whoooo so gonna nap after this!!! if I can lol!!

1039(USA)
I'm scared shitless right now!! And I hate this feeling! I just want to know I am going to be ok. And right now I feel like its a 50/50 chance! It is kinda hard to grasp. And this movie the Warrior is so intense and the mix of alcohol. Oh gosh! Not a good feeling right now. And this movie is sooooo overwhelming! I need to sleep!

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alright, this is for those of you who are either reading this for your first time and have no idea about me. just have no idea about me period, or just have no time and you do know me but just wanna read this. haha. :P . anyhow I'm John, nice to meet you! and welcome! lets get right to the nitty and grity of why we are really here shall we. So I hail from the Bay Area up near San Francisco. i love it there! definitely one of the best places to be on earth!!! I have one mother andone father no step-anything. divorced. and then there is only me. between two parents who hate each other. awkward. lol. I will say though i have come to accept my relationship with both my parents and i love them both unconditionally. I've been in school for past 20 somethin' years, and finally just finished at Cal State Northirdge. i hate school. love learning, but hate school, I'm just no good at it. ha! but true, those learning disabilities are no joke. and the amount of drugs i did as a youngster didn't help either i bet! lol! hey,six and half-ish years into sobriety i can crack jokes and laugh about it, ok. lol. yeah that time in my life deserves a blog to itself. back to me now. lol. I'm at a point in my life where its time to be me. I use to be really fat had really bad teeth. (basically me finally becoming sober) and pretty much a lot of work later I at least have a little more confidence(still a work in process). Another I'm finally at a point in my life where i have been dreaming about and have been working to get to. and still i feel as though I'm completely dreaming and almost denying it is happening even though i am completely aware it is. again, i will get more into detail about this in the blog. so just hold the fuck up, alright! :P i have a dirty mouth and for about half the day give or take a few hours a dirty mind, so i should say now if you don't think you handle what i have to say id advise you to stop reading now. not to mention i have been told that i have a mouth on me and most the time i happen to be that guy that says all the wrong things at the wrong time, or always come out wrong. certainly something i working on cause im really not a dick. i swear. cause the point of this thing is to just say whatever is in my head. trust me its just as awkward for you as it is for me. trust me. I'm pretty much an open book right now, so nothing is off limits. but if this helps to understand where i am at in life right now; not only am i using this as a tool to record this era of my life, but most of this is therapeutic to me, and the thought of other people reading this and getting inside my head (if they understand it or not depends. lol.) kinda pushes some of my buttons i like. don't ya think? oh well. So if you didnt catch from the title that i am a dancer . then i dont know what to tell you. dumbass. well that is me. i am a dancer. i love everything about dance, i truely do I even went as deep as to , the feeling it gives me when i move, the amazing people you ge to meet, well some aren't so great people but we just wont talk about them. continuing on. the passion it fills me with. never knowing where it is going to take me. who the fuck could not love that. me. right here. yes me. i couldn't love it more and and i am ready for more. feed me. OK I must make a quick shout out to the three people who truly are I can even find the word. Ummmm. I must just say that these three people are my sisters, my angels, my world. I would certainly take a bullet for them without out even having to think twice. Chrisi & Selina Kayo, and Rebecca Dilg. I will say though no one get me like these three, the memories, tears, lies, sex, drugs (Becca was the good girl so count her out for this one),fallouts, and what-not. but as Kennis would say “different cities, same area code”! not enough could be said about these girls. they are seriously how I got to where I have today, they inspire me and keep me in that fight for your dream mentality. well on that note and being done with the emotional part i think i should stop there and just do the damn thing already...ready. set. go.