DaNcEsUrFeR!: 6 days

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

6 days

Yes I know it has been way too long but I am going to be completely honest. I just haven't had the want to write. Like I did but I just felt like I had no time and my grams Internet kept going out. But as I think I may have fixed it and that I feel like I can't sleep and kinda in the mood to write I think I am going to. Just have to say I am in love with the iPad!! I highly suggest if you don't have one get one it will become you life and literally becomes apart of you!! But yeah I have six days left and in two days I a heading back to Los Angeles. I honest could not be more excited I don't even know if excited it the word I would right now! I am so many things! I'm nervous, I'm scared, I'm anxious, excited, in shock, makes my stomach turn, my palms sweat, but I couldn't be happier and that is what it is all about!! And I am proud to say that I have found my fist place I am going to be staying with. I met a girl at Debbie Reynolds who said if I needed help to give her a shout out so I did, cause I'm still waiting for my verification number for the couch surfing, I only sent the donation in like 4 days ago. But hey I did it and I am really excited to get to use it! I already tried emailing a guy in Ireland to stay at his house, see if he writes back but I don't know if it shows if I am verified yet so they not take me without it! So I'm waiting for that �� ok so I got to catch you all up on what has been going on and keeping me super busy

So as you know my sister had been staying me while she was prego, she was here about three weeks and then about the 2 1/2 week she started to become in major pain, and I kept telling her it wasn't coming she would probably have him more closer to or on Christmas but nope on December 19th the pain was getting really bad for her I mean we had heat packs on her front and back side but I was there right by her side not saying word just using to be there for my sister, make sure she was alright! Finally she could not take the pain no longer and she didn't feel right so she said it was time to go to the hospital. It was like 1am in the morning. They took her but took thema while it seemed to get her all settled in and try to figure out was wrong! Then at about 3am they had finally told her "oh honey right now your going through pre-labor" an hour layer she was going through labor her water finally broke and I was in the room and saw it and damn it was cool! I felt like I was in a lifetime movie! I go get the nurse she did good though with the pain once they gave her the drugs she was chill she slept most the time I didn't sleep cause I didn't want to take a chance of missing anything! Sam had come through, she has really grown on me I like her such a sweet girl and heart of gold! I wish her the of luck through life! So back to the pregnancy, we got Buddy out too (talk about another one who has grown on me) his sister went to get him out of work program, we all waiting all day, like it seemed like forever, and I didn't want to miss a damn thing I hardly left the room... Around 6pm she was getting close... Omg the rest went by too fast but it was time to push!!�� they really only did allow three people in there so Buddy got his choice and my sister got her and it was me! And I could not more than grateful to her for giving me that experience cause it was the most life changing thing, and I think it was the most beautiful site to witness. His head coming through the womb and how peaceful he looked and beautiful.and there I was holding one leg with one hand and then trying to snap pictures in the other. And oh I was just clicking away like a crazy person! But I couldnt as for a more beautiful nephew, well second nephew cause I love my other guy just much!!! ❤❤❤ ugh what an experience I hope to see another, and I think I was a great coach to her! She didn't tell me to shut the fuck up or get out I just catered to her and to be honest I wanted to!! And I still got to read almost the entire second book to hunger games. I've now started the third, I'm savoring it, it's so hard but I want to read it on the plane✈ but damn that was amazing

Ok I am going to turn later on I need to sleep I have a lot to do tomorrow and I feel I like a don't have enough time but I can conquer them all!! Watch me!! Tah-tah

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chrisiJanuary 10, 2012 at 4:27 AM
Umm he was horn December not January hahaha you put January
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